The Other Side of The Tunnel...

In the era of Covid-19, there are so many areas of my life that have been literally pulled, stretched and pruned. However, I often found myself dealing with such a wave of depression that I began to almost believe the things that I said to myself. Things like, "You're alone", "No one cares about what you are doing". I truly began to feed into those thoughts and everything around me was affected by them. It felt very easy to slip into that place of acceptance of this depression, because for so long that was my normal. I was functional in my dysfunction. This comes from a long line of learning a false strength, one that simply made it so I believed I must remain strong and continue to "hold myself together", this is all a lie.

Last week, I was going THROUGH it! Literally broke down and just everything that I have been tryin to avoid kind of slapped me in the face. After crying with my sister, I began to pray and just ask God to help me because I just didn't know what to do. Later that night, I had one of the most impactful dreams that I could have. I won't get into a lot of details about the dream but I will say, I had an encounter with Jesus. I woke up crying and just began to praise Him. In that time of prayer, God reminded that He is closer than I could have imagined but also because I put my faith in Him, I have access to Him. In 2 Timothy 1:7 it states, " For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and love and of a sound mind". This right here shows that when you put your faith in Jesus there is a freedom from fear.

I will never say neglect what you are you are going through but I will say you can have victory. Gods grace is sufficient and we don't have to earn it, it's available for all who believe. I am not perfect but I know that I can be vulnerable with Jesus and with that I know depression does not have to be my normal. Take care of yourselves, reach out to friends, and God's love for you is great. Much love to you all!